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36 Week Update

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How far along? 36 weeks & 2 days

Gender: Boy

Maternity Clothes?  Obviously lol I rock my maternity yoga pants most days….even though, confession time, they’ve literally never been to yoga…oops!

Stretch Marks? Yep, on my newfound cleavage & the sides of my hips.

Belly button in or out?  Definitely stretching out but, somehow, still in.

Sleep: I’ve been pretty lucky here. I’ve only had pregnancy insomnia less than a handful of times. Most nights, despite my 4 trips to the bathroom, I still manage to sleep pretty well surrounded by all my pillows.

Best moment this week: Getting to see baby Elijah on the ultrasound yesterday! He always cracks us up since he’s so stubborn, which hasn’t changed. Yesterday, he directly ninja kicked the probe the tech was holding over him….he showed her 😛 Learning that baby is head down & not breech was also a HUGE relief. AND I FINISHED MY LOVENOX INJECTIONS Sunday night!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Symptoms: My chronic, as my OB deemed them, yeast infections & BV have honestly been the worst thing since the second trimester. Other than that, I’ve started to have some swelling in my feet, which I need to keep elevated more often.

I also remain the reigning bathroom champion of the house for pee breaks lol

Through all those minor inconveniences, the scares, & the blood thinners I’ve been on, it’s still so odd to me that, because of the constant infections I’ve had, when nurses or nurse practitioners I’ve seen say, “Man, this pregnancy has really been rough on you.” Thinking back to everything I had to go through trying to get pregnant, all of these things feel so small to me. I would take them all for the rest of my life if that’s what it took to be where I am. When we were struggling, I always vowed, if we ever got pregnant, to never complain about anything because I know the absolute hell & heartache people go through in hopes of getting to the other side. I feel like, for anyone who has battled infertility, our perspective is vastly different from someone who was lucky enough not to have fertility issues.

Miss Anything?  SUSHI, SUSHI, SUSHI!!! I may have eyed the Kroger sushi this weekend & dramatically looked up at my husband to say, “I can’t be strong anymore.” LOL Note: I still have not had sushi 😛 He does, however, have strict orders to go get 3 rolls just for me once Piglet is born.

Cravings? Still ground beef & steak.

Food aversions? Still chicken *gag

Queasy or sick?  I had one episode a few days ago. Other than heartburn, I’ve been in the clear on this for a while now.

Any trips to Labor and Delivery? Not yet. I hadn’t started to dilate at my appointment yesterday yet but she did say my cervix had started to soften.

Looking forward to?  Meeting this amazing miracle

Next Goal: Get rid of the most current yeast infection &, hopefully, pass the group B strep test I had yesterday.

 

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A Year Ago Yesterday…

I wrote a blog post a year ago yesterday. A big one. A sad one. It was called, “A Goodbye To Infertility Treatments, For Now.” I wrote it not long after our second IVF fail. Not too long after I’d given up on the idea of you. 

Yesterday, in my present life, happened to be a big day too. We reached the 22 week mark, somewhere I still can hardly believe we are. You’re more wanted than I can ever express to you. I hope that our story reminds you of that. I hope that your name reminds you that miracles happen & you are most certainly, without a doubt, are one of them. 

&, if you’re reading this in the midst of your struggle, I hope that our story gives you hope. If your heart is still hurting today, I’d also like to tell you something my papaw tells me 9 times out of 10 when we hang up with each other: “Hold on & never give up. I love you.”
 “If we didn’t expose where we came from, some of our most difficult moments, then we wouldn’t be fully revealing the depth of the joy we are enjoying today.” 

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Anatomy Scan & Gender Reveal (Trigger Warning)

I haven’t posted a lot of details & pictures about our pregnancy on this blog once we reached a place where we both felt more at ease. I have consciously not done this because I know that the vast majority of those who follow along do so because this is an infertility blog & I also know that certain images, depending on what place in your journey you may be, can hurt & bring up a lot of negative emotions. I know how that feels all too well & have tried to avoid inciting those emotions in the people who follow along here. At the same time, I also know this pregnancy is a miracle & is something to be celebrated, which I’ve done on my other social media accounts. I plan on continuing this pattern moving forward but will post highlights here, one being both our anatomy scan & gender reveal.

So let’s get right to it!

For starters, our anatomy scan went really  well & we were told that everything looked normal. Oddly, I had to sign a form at the beginning stating I understood the scan was no guarantee that all problems would be identified…to which I, out loud, responded, “don’t tell me that!” LOL After dealing with infertility & two losses, worrying more is not something I need…I do it all the time regardless. I’m sure many of you understand that. Anyway, back to it, we had originally planned on NOT learning the gender that day & waiting till the reveal to find out along with our families. Well….I’ve never been a patient person…I was going to write the most patient but I’m not patient period most often so lol we’ll just call it what it is. Scott was getting antsy too so we agreed we’d find out together & keep the secret until Saturday, two days later.

After our scan, we saw my Dr who measured my fundal height for the first time. It measured almost 19 weeks, which is right on par since I was due to turn 19 weeks that Sunday & this was a Thursday. We also took this time to discuss our birth plan in terms of wanting a natural childbirth & it went really well. She didn’t seem to think there’d be any issue with it and responded, “Okay.” I also made sure she was good with both a doula & a birth photographer being there & she was so all went well.

Now……the gender reveal! It’s a………

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As the tech said, “It looks like plumbing of the outdoor variety.” 😀

A few people asked us if we were happy with the result that day & our response was simple. We never would’ve cared what color the balloons were..just as long as we got to have balloons.

We’ve already chosen a name for him, Elijah Cole. We chose it since, in the Bible, Elijah was a miracle worker & us finally being able to get & maintain a pregnancy is nothing short of a miracle. Cole is after mamaw (since her nickname was Co) & myself (my middle name is Nicole).

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We can’t wait to meet our little miracle & cannot express how overjoyed we are that we’re finally here. ❤

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Thank you, for following along with us ❤

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Second OB Appointment

Funny thing….I waited until late evening to say anything on Facebook, or Instagram about our appointment because I was waiting for an order to come in. I took a leap of faith last week & ordered biweekly pregnancy update chalkboards that were suppose to get to me either yesterday, or today. In hopes of getting it yesterday, I delayed the update because I thought, “how cute would that be??”

Well….I got a few messages, texts, & comments from some very nervous people who follow along with the blog & our story. I also had a notification that my, “stats were booming,” here yesterday for that very reason. Had we not called our parents, I’m sure we would’ve gotten some threatening phone calls before I did post as well. lol More people than I would have EVER imagined have not only been following along with us through it all but also rallying around us, supporting, & praying for us & for that I will be forever grateful. If you have ever walked the road of infertility, you know that it’s a very lonely one. It’s trying, it’s soul crushing, & it’s just really freaking hard. Having so many people be invested in our journey is truly a blessing. We are so lucky.

And now for the update!

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I was incredibly nervous yet again (shocker, shocker!), so nervous that I lived in the bathroom for a good amount of the day until Scott got home to get me for the appt. We made a last ditch effort for a quick snack at McD’s (AKA, to me, as Ronald’s Fat House) & got some breakfast…well, me & baby M got breakfast because that’s all we were feeling….apparantlyyyyy they very much enjoyed that sausage biscuit because they were moving like crazyyyyyy on the ultrasound!!!! We were shocked at just how much!! As we are having it done, with the ultrasound tech right beside me, Scott says, “It’s just like Sophie! Look at the way it moves its arms & legs!” grinning from ear to ear….thank God she has no idea that Sophie is our fur baby LOL The heartbeat was 169!!!!!!!!!!!!! *crowd roars

When we got back to my Doc, she came in smiling & seemed happy with everything. She said the ultrasound indicated good fetal movement & there we no signs of miscarriage. She asked about my symptoms & didn’t seem alarmed at all that my morning sickness is going away. When I asked her if light cramping was normal, at first, she gave me a mini heart attack. “Yes, but if it’s ever red you need to call here &, if it’s on a weekend that may get a little harder, so just go to an ER…though that’s not always a good experience.” Scott & I looked at each other, giving each other the, “that tell me about it!” look.  I did make sure to follow up with, “so it’s normal?” The second answer made me feel a lot better: “Yes, you should feel like you’re about to start your period all the time and it should go away by the second trimester. We just have to get you there, I think you’ll feel a lot better then.”

The plan remains the same as far as meds go. I’ll continue with Aspirin & Levonox until way into the pregnancy & stop taking the Progesterone at 13 weeks…which now makes me nervous since we’re quickly approaching that. I keep telling myself she noted I didn’t even need it anymore at our first OB appointment but I have to keep reminding my anxiety fueled self of that.

If you pray, please, pleaseeee continue to pray for us!!!!! Again, thank you all so, so much!!!!!!!!!! ❤ xo

Sidenote: I just want to make it clear that this blog will continue on & I promise it won’t be solely about pregnancy. I will still blog about infertility, as it will always be such a big part of our lives, mental health, & just random things that I really love & think you may, too 😉